Silly Me

Shannon of Misguided Mommy posted a writing challenge at the cafemom group. She asked what 3 things we want our child to experience. So here’s my answer:

I’m sure I want what every parent wants. I want her to be happy and healthy and a good person. I don’t know specifically what any of these mean since it’s different for everyone, but that’s what I want in a nutshell. But since I’m sure the challenge is to come up with 3 specific things, I’ll do my best.

1. I want Eliana to make mistakes and bad decisions. Nothing major or life-threatening or anything. Just things that will help her learn and grow and change. I want her to look back on the crazy, not-so-smart things she’ll do and smile at the person she was (will be?…tense shall be weird for this post). I want her to get into a little trouble. That way she knows what trouble looks like and can avoid the big stuff.

2. I want Eliana to get a great education. I feel like I missed out on not finishing college and I don’t want her to ever feel like she missed out on anything. I want her to work hard for what she wants and be proud when she achieves it. I want her to be ambitious, but know that ambition isn’t everything. And I want her to be a good person in the process. I don’t want her to step on anyone to get to where she wants to be. I want her to make a difference in the world and make it a better place for everyone.

3. I want her to have a child. With the struggling that Tony and I went through to have Eliana, and the fact that my condition can be genetic, it worries me that she may not be able to experience pregnancy and/or motherhood. I want that for her. I want her to feel how amazing it is to bring a life into the world. I want her to feel the unconditional love a person has for their child. I want her experience the intense emotions involved in parenthood. She is the only person in this world that can scare me out of my mind and make me happier than I have ever been. I hope to God she gets to feel this way toward her own child.