Rollercoaster
Oh my what a day!
But before I get into it, let me just say Tony’s eye surgery went great. He had his post-op appointment today and he now has 20/20 vision (although he says it’s still a little blurry). The pain has been really minimal. It’s worse tonight though. He says it feels like a burning pain. I’m concerned since it got worse instead of better. I don’t think it’s supposed to go that way. He’s going to take a percocet and hopefully he’ll feel better tomorrow.
Now, my day. My morning sucked ass. Eliana was getting into EVERYTHING. I swear I pulled the child away and said no so many times I’m exhausted just thinking about it. I lost my patience and yelled and I shouldn’t have. I know it’s because I have had a break in days and (men, avert your eyes) it is totally that time of the months which YOU KNOW makes it worse. I was cranky and fussy and awful. I broke down and cried while Eliana laughed at me. She laughs when I cry. I may have cried a little longer than I needed to just to keep her laughing. That’s weird, isn’t it?
I talked to Tony and he didn’t make it any better. He usually does and it’s not his fault that he didn’t today. He did just have surgery yesterday and maybe has some stuff on his mind. I guess he’s entitled every now and then. Then I talked to Coty and she totally helped. I don’t even know how, but after talking to her, I felt better. I was calmer and more patient and better. After Eliana woke from her nap, it was great. When she played alone, she didn’t get into anything she shouldn’t. She was happier and less fussy. Maybe we both just needed a nap. I spent a lot of time playing with her. I think I needed that. She even went down for bed easy. And then I spent some time baby proofing. No sense going through that again tomorrow.
After she went down, I ordered a pizza and read this blog (seriously, do NOT read unless you want to cry. It WILL make you cry.) I guess I got caught up, because the pizza guy was here before I knew it. So of course I had to answer the door with my cheeks still wet from crying. And it was my favorite delivery guy too! He’s a little person and adorable, but that’s not why he’s my favorite. He remembers that we have a baby and he always knocks so gently so he doesn’t wake her. Isn’t that so thoughtful? Not to mention, he’s so polite and nice.
After gorging on way too much pizza and talking to Tony for a while, I watched this movie. I LOVE that movie. It makes me laugh and cry and jump up and down and yes I KNOW I and such a girl. But (mini-spoiler) if you can watch the part where Arthur walks into the banquet hall and all those people are standing and clapping for him and NOT CRY, well I just don’t get you and I never will. That always chokes me up. And Jack Black is so perfect for the part he plays and I totally have a crush on his character and yes I KNOW how stupid that sounds. Whatever shut up.
Oh the joys of being a girl.
8 me
Get it? Like “eat me”? Ha ha, yes I am so funny and clever.
So I was tagged for a meme by the most awesome Michele (with one ‘l’). And here it is.
8 Things I Am Passionate About:
1. Eliana
2. Tony
3. shopping (You can be passionate about shopping, right?)
4. food
5. My sisters (I should mention this is in no particular order since I just listed my sisters after food and that makes me sound bad and probably fat)
6. Equality
7. My parents
8. My friends
8 Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
1. Travel to Italy
2. See all 50 states
3. Watch Eliana (and any future children) get married
4. Hold my grandchildren
5. Learn a creative hobby
6. Finish school (as in get a degree in SOMETHING, ANYTHING)
7. Go white water rafting
8. Swim with a dolphin
8 Things I Often Say:
1. Son-Of-A-Monkey!
2. No!
3. Eliana you may not touch that!
4. Loveh Love
5. Shut up
6. Whatever
7. Seven? Purple? Mashed Potatoes?!
8. I might blog this
8 Books I Have Read Lately (Seriously? This only time I have to read lately is when I’m hiding in the bathroom)
5. Dragonquest
7. Dragonflight
(I’m working my way through all of the author’s books. So far I’ve read 4 different series and am working on #5 right now.)
8 Movies I Have Watched 8 Times Or More:
1. The Fifth Element
2. Save the Last Dance
3. The Wizard of Oz
4. Finding Nemo (Thanks to my nephew)
5. Love Comes Softly
6. The Princess Bride (Thanks to Tony)
7. Willow
8. Where the Heart Is
8 People I Am Tagging:
1. You
2. You
3. You
4. You
5. You
6. You
7. You
8. You
It’s kinda hard to come up with 8 things.
Silver lining
Eliana is going through some major separation anxiety. I do not love it. She’s clingy and cranky and whiny. She cries to be picked up, and then cries while we’re holding her. Forget leaving the room. I can’t even get 5 feet away from her. Nap times aren’t too terrible, but bedtime is awful. She screams and cries. When I pick her up she’s fine, but as soon as I lay her down, she cries. So far the only thing that works (somewhat) is putting her in my bed. She falls asleep and can usually be moved back into the crib.
The problem right now is that Tony is gone. He’s away this week getting laser eye surgery (not Lasik, but similar). He won’t be home until next Monday. Which means I am left to deal with this most crappy phase all by myself. Alone. With no help. Worse still is the unknown factor. I have no idea how long this is going to last. Eliana has never had more than 2 bad days in a row. Ever. Until now. We’re on day 4.
She also has a molar coming in (possibly already in, not sure). It’s her first and I’ve heard they’re more painful than usual. I’m sure it just makes everything a little worse. I give her tylenol when I think she needs it. But no fever, so that’s a bonus.
But.
In the morning she lays her head on my chest or belly or arm or cheek. She crawls over to me and holds her arms up because she wants me. She gives me hugs and kisses. At night when I have to bring her into my bed, she curls her tiny, soft body against me and stares into my eyes. Not crying, not smiling, just watching. Her eyelids get heavier and heavier. She fights to keep them open, but eventually she closes them and falls asleep in my arms. Ever since she started crawling, she hasn’t been interested in snuggling with me. She’s always too busy exploring and getting into things. But this phase changed that.
It sucks a lot of the time. But there are a few silver linings. And I think they make it a little more tolerable.
Eliana Tuesday #10
10 months, 3 weeks, and 3 days old
This is what happy looks like.
My family in pictures
I think if I tried to break it all down by day or even activity, we would be here forever. We did a lot of stuff. It was fun. The end.
Ok, not the end. The beginning.
My sister (Vickie) and nephew (Matthew) at the aquarium
The kids watching Signing Time
We made the mistake of going to a park with NO SHADE in TEXAS in the SUMMER. So we all climbed into the play area thing.
Tony dancing with Eliana at his work picnic
Eliana in the bounce house. She LOVED it!
Bowling. For the record, I came in last.
Can I just say how great it is to have someone else hold the bottle? Cuz it so is.
We went to the park a lot.
A whole lot
The best way to stay cool.
Eliana liked it.
At the beach. I should probably keep in mind that I hate sand and salt water. You know, for next time.
Not sure about this water.
He didn’t even stop to take his shirt off.
Us
Me, kicking their butts in the bumper boats. That was so much fun!!!
Matthew on the go cart.
Signing Time again
Banging on the drums at the zoo
Matthew petting a goat
Eliana wasn’t too sure about touching it.
This is a kangaroo (duh). We saw the little one climb out of the pouch and then climb back in. I have never been so glad to NOT be a kangaroo ever in my life.
Jumping on the hotel bed. Tony looks weird because he was afraid he’d hit his head on the ceiling.
Matthew feeding the dolphin at Sea World
Eliana sleeping at Sea World.
Shamu show
Matthew with Shamu just before we left
We dropped them off at the airport right after Sea World. And I was wrong, I had 25 pages to go through. I’m sad that their gone, but at least I’ll see them again in October when we fly up to visit. And it is nice to have the house back. Cleaning up is going to take a week, but that’s ok. All in all, it was a good visit.
Coming soon
I’m working on several blogs about my sister’s visit, but it might take a little while. We did so much stuff, took so many pictures, and had so much fun! I have 20+ pages on my flickr to sort through before I can get it all down.
Also, my house is destroyed. Mostly due to a combination of a 5 year old and my lack of motivation. That’ll probably take longer than the blogs. It’s a very very very slow work in progress. Because I’m lazy.
So bear with me a little and I promise I’ll get to everything.
(And I know I was tagged for a meme and I’ll get on that too!)
